Next week I have a long-overdue set of blood tests, both for long-term medication and for my diabetes.

Normally I don't worry too much about them but this time I'm terrified. Yes, I know, practical and hypothetical worry.

I am worried that something horrible will be found such as my kidneys failing, my liver failing, my HBa1c going out of control and so on - so much so that I am genuinely considering turning down a day of work the day after my tests because I'm worried I won't be able to cope at work when I learn the results or drive home safely through worry the same day. I'm even worried that I'll get a phone call saying "pack a bag, we're sending an ambulance for you as you need to come to hospital now."

Thoughts? Should I stay at home where even though I'll be alone, I may cope better with bad news?