Re: First fear in a long time - Dermatomyositis
Originally Posted by
darkside4k
So - I actually thought I had recovered from being a hypochondriac. I haven’t had any seriously long lived fears in a long time. I was so proud of myself. Boy was I wrong.
Did you have any kind of therapy?
I went to the doctor (twice now)
and my bloodwork has been normal both times. Normal CK, LDH, and ANA auto-immune panel. The irritated area on my knuckle went away within a week or so. I still use steroid cream under my right eye every day or two so I’m not sure if that rash would come back or not if I stop. I’m too scared to stop.
Even though my blood work was normal, I fear I have this disease and will soon be dead.
I do not have any obvious weakness but I do still have muscle soreness and fatigue sometimes. My bloodwork and muscle enzymes have remained normal in spite of this muscle fatigue.
I even have started obsessing if my muscle mass is wasting away because my butt feels smaller when I sit in a chair, though my wife says it looks the same.
I worry my throat feels tight and swallowing feels tight.
But I am able to eat normally.
You need therapy for your health anxiety. There's nothing major going on here. Your bloods are normal (this wouldn't happen if you were about to die of a disease) and the muscle soreness and fatigue is down to the level of your anxiety because being in constant fight or flight creates these symptoms..
I'm thinking that you didn't address your HA first time?
Re the steroid cream, I wouldn't use that stuff indefinitely; the skin under the eye is thin as it is. Stop using it and see how you go...
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