Re: Work fear/anxiety
Thanks again Lenco. I think what had me shaken was that all of the crimes that were listed took place during the day. I figured at least people would wait to steal or break into cars until it was dark. I also had previously told myself things like "well, they probably left their car unlocked" but no, smashing windows is apparently okay. A few weeks ago they were drilling into car locks in the lot of a popular hiking trail. That just made me wonder, if we're okay with breaking into cars, what would stop someone from just breaking into my basement windows?
The robbery I found out was between two people who knew each other. Not sure if that makes it "better". But they were firing at the people they robbed while they were driving down a road that I used to walk my dog on around that time. I don't live over there anymore and I don't walk my dog in neighborhoods anymore either, but I still had a thought like, "what if that happened while I was out with him?'
The protest itself actually went really well - but I have never been afraid before of a stranger approaching me to ask a question in broad daylight. We were just sitting there eating, along with other groups of people.
There's a city east of me that my dad grew up in, it used to be really nice when he was a kid (big, historic victorian houses, lots of middle and upper class people) but is absolutely horrible now. So much violence - it's known for it. I don't know what happened, I think ultimately people started moving out of the city proper and went to more suburbs and then the city itself just fell apart. I fear that is what is happening to my town now, as they continue to build the "nice" houses farther west and create little sprawled communities there and the houses in the town itself generally fall to slumlords. It makes it really hard to get excited about the renovations to my house, because it actually looks really nice now but I feel bummed when I feel unsafe and also wonder if I'll get the invested money back. But some of that ties into fears about what my future looks like.
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