Excuse the title, guys. But right now I feel like I need to bloodywell MAN UP!
Thought I'd write a little post about it.
My hubby is currently in need of a new kidney. As we've expected it for so long, it hasn't come as a huge shock or even change at this stage.
I'm coordinating trying to find a donor amongst friends and family, running a Facebook page etc. NO PROBLEM!
However, we're off camping on Thursday (as we do regularly) and suddenly I'm all anxious about terrible things that might happen to ME!
What if this happens? What if that happens? Will I die?
GIVE ME STRENGTH!
I know why this has happened, however. After losing her darling Dad several years ago, my lovely Mum clung onto me in fear of losing me as well. She went through a long phase of panicking about me while I was away. A few years on and she has stopped, but I now think - well she must have reason to panic. Surely something terrible could happen!
I'm angry at myself for giving in to my thoughts and emotions.
Has anyone got any advice to shut me up please?