I have read and read about finding what your afraid of and facing it.
I have went back in my head and realized when I became afraid.
Years ago 18 years ago, My relationship with my violent x made me terribly afraid of ever dying and leaving my children. He had lost his mom when he was 3 and had a terrible childhood. I separated from him when my girls were little 2 and 3. I then worried endlessly that something would happen to me and he would get custody of my girls. I wrote letters and gave them to everyone that if that were to happen then do what ever they had to and keep my girls with my mom or my brother or sister. I have carried this 18 years and now my girls are 15 and 17 and I really have no reason to worry because they are old enough to say where they would like to go.
Now with that being said, the light bulb is on, but not as bright, but I hope the symptoms will end soon. I have even spoke to one of my girls about this.
Thanks for listening, I just wanted to share!
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