hya hayley,
ime so sorry,your feeling this bad...i wouldnt wish for any one to suffer,like you obviously are at the moment.
my line of work,is accident,and emergency...we are able to see what is wrong with the patient,and hopefully in time repair any damage.
with severe anxiety/depression,the symptoms,and treatment,are far more complex,and we rely on researchers,based around the world,to come up with the answers,many of whom,like me are not themselves sufferers.
you say that you have suffered for the last three months,who has prescribed four different drugs?,one of them on its own,has side effects enough to depress a heard of elephants.
electro convulsive therapy should be used only as a last resort,for those suffering long term,and who,in the eyes of a specialist,are a danger to themselves,and/or the general public.
here is a lay mans view of this procedure.......electrons are attached to the head via pads,and the current is turned on,thus violently shaking the patients brain around,hoping that when everything settles down,the part of the brain causing the problems,has been moved back to its correct position...ITS HIT AND MISS...ITS BEEN LIKENED TO DOING A DEFRAG ON YOUR PC.
hayley,you mention this ,likes its a quick fix,but ect is a course of treatments,and you may have to have up to ten or more procedures,with still,no guarantee of success.
i dont know where you live,but if its in the south,then please seek adsvice from a specialist hospital,such as the maudsely,in london.
i really do wish you well,but please,please dont go down this road...think again...bryan