Stress is horrendus

[chipsahoy]

Insomnia is really hard. I am sorry you are going through that. I find when I can't get sleep it makes everything worse (my anxiety, my stress, my depression). Are you taking any medicine for it (either otc or otherwise?). One thing my dad told me that helped a lot was that even if you cant fall asleep, just lay there. You might sleep 15 mins, then be awake for 20. then 15, then 40, etc. but it will add up. I find getting myself a schedule (lay in bed from 10pm until 8am) helps a lot. It's a task I can work at, even if I can't "sleep" well during it. I find that can help. But there's no easy fix, i really feel for you going through that

[WiredIncorrectly]

I have insomnia tonight. It's 4:17 am.


Today has been such a bad day. As you know I bailed on the hike. I wasn't bothered about that, but it left a few negative feelings.


I placed my order on Amazon for my monthly household items. Stuff like washing tablets, conditioner, dog food, and all the rest of it. Order went through fine and was due to be delivered on Sunday.


But then I noticed the address was wrong. Amazon had auto selected my ex's addresses as that was the last address while I was looking after her house. So I got in touch with them via their chat and spoke to one of their reps. I asked them to change the address and remove my ex's address. They did both.


I checked my orders and they said 6th of September for delivery. That wasn't right. I got back in touch with Amazon, and explained the issue. I was rudely told nothing can be done. I spoke to another rep, explained the issue all over again. This rep. said my items will be delivered on the 17th (later today, as it's 4am). I checked the order page and the delivery date had not been amended. I also had no email.


I got back in touch with them, and asked them to tell me when the items will be delivered, to confirm the last rep. had update it. They hadn't! I was then told there's nothing they can do and they can refund me into my amazon gift balance immediately. So I can replace the order.


I waited an hour and my gift card balance was still 0. I got back in touch with them and asked what was going on. I was then told the last rep. had issued the refund to my bank card and it will take up to 5 working days to refund.


And wait for it. This is not all.


I had some money in savings, and replaced the same order. I left off any item that wasn't available for Sunday delivery (there was only 2). The order went through fine and delivery was due for Sunday. Excellent.


But then I noticed delivery was going to my ex\s again. How?! I removed it. Amazon had auto picked that address again! So I got back in touch with Amazon and asked them to change the address. And they did.


While I was talking to them I checked the order page and once again the delivery was set to September 6fh. I ask them what was going on. It turns out there's a glitch in the system that incorrectly sets the date when an address is changed. The rep hadn't seen this before. And it made sense because it happened on the last order after the address was changed too.


My second order says 6th of September. I've been assured they will arrive Sunday. I am not hopeful. I can't get through to anybody in the UK to explain this. It's just been a huge headache and a wasted day.


Sorry to ramble, but I'm also very low because of my teeth. I have to have them out next week. 5 of them. But I'm not going. There's no point. I'm not in pain. My front teeth are not decaying or in pain. I need the fillings, but I don't want to call the dentist to tell them I don't want the removals.


Unless they plan to replace all of my teeth then there's no point. Because removing the front teeth at the bottom and adding dentures isn't going to improve how I look. My top teeth are still a mess. Lots of missing teeth at the back.


I'm not going to the dentist anymore. They don't care that my teeth are one of the big reasons for low self confidence. So many years of my brain being worried about how I look and how people see me. Since I was 8 years old and my teeth grew wonky.


I'm going to speak to my therapist about this but I doubt they can do anything. I've just had enough.


Even the dentist seemed negative towards me. Looking at my teeth like I'm a drug addict. It's sad. Nobody asks questions. They just treat me like I'm a low life.


What's the point in trying in life when I can't even smile without looking awful.


I give up. The ups have came down. I can't be bothered with life anymore. The only celebration I have is I haven't drank alcohol for a good while. And it doesn't interest me. I hate the taste. I hate the feeling.


The negatives far outweigh the positives.

[Carnation]

Morning wired

Firstly can I say how impressed I am with how you dealt with the Amazon glitch, or should I say glitches.
I'm sure you are not the first person to experience something similar.
You could have given up but you didn't and well done for that.
It's not just Amazon in this modern world I had a 2 month 'glitch' with EE (Everything Everywhere), lol, couldn't get 'Anything Anywhere'. So it's not personal wired just the way of the world today.

Dentists.....
As you know I've had issues myself and fully aware of yours. I too am not going back to the dentist. They Do look at you with a degree of disgust, accuse you of doing something bad to your teeth, remark how you need most of your removed without an incline of make good appearance afterwards. My dentist caused me more pain than I had when I went and managed to knock one of my front teeth out slightly when knocking it with his little hammer. There is zero empathy and they make you wait ridiculous amounts of time before they see you and when they do, have the manner of a bus conductor, sorry, actually bus conductors are more friendly.
Apart from that, my grandparents never went to the dentist and they managed to keep hold of more of their teeth. They fall out naturally for free! With very little pain, if any and apart from that, most people can't get a dentist for love or money anyway.
Oh, and that cleaning thing they do just weakens the teeth and takes away the enamel.
As for smiling, I don't give a sh@t what people think of my teeth and you can always smile without showing your pegs, but what the heck anyway.