Anybody else have this illness going around? It's rife here.

[WiredIncorrectly]

You're not wrong.

On the other hand though, I do think there are certain people (dare I say it) who seem to revel in illness and crave all the attention and sympathy from others, both on social media and IRL, which I think can be an insult to genuinely ill people who hate every minute of it, even though the so-called attention seekers who love to make a song and dance over it are often genuinely ill themselves.

I think there's others who habitually revel in 'grief porn' too.

But going back to the explosion in many things being awarded trendy 'buzzword' names since the early 2000s, it's a phenomenon I've never quite got, and IMO is symbolic of revelling in 'drama porn' and/or 'disaster/crisis porn'!

BTW, I hope you're on the mend now.

Thanks Lenco I'm feeling much better.

I have noticed a huge uptick of people wanting spectrum disorders. And it really baffled me. It still does. A friends young daughter is doing it, and she's had her tested. But this young girl is convinced she's got spectrum disorders. She consumes far too much tiktok, Discord and I think 4chan also.

When I was diagnosed on the spectrum I registered on a very popular ASD form. And I shared the diagnosis and asked for some advice from others who live with it. I felt they would be the best people to answer my questions. Much like here on NMP in regards to anxiety and depression.

I discovered most people were self diagnosed. I quickly left that forum in particular.

But Discord is a whole different level. The ASD servers I've been on are all young people, mostly undiagnosed, and rather than try to seek resolution to their problems they use their self diagnosed illness as justification to continue being who they are.

I don't get this new generation of people.

NMP is one of the only forums where I've found genuine people.

[Lencoboy]

Thanks Lenco I'm feeling much better.

I have noticed a huge uptick of people wanting spectrum disorders. And it really baffled me. It still does. A friends young daughter is doing it, and she's had her tested. But this young girl is convinced she's got spectrum disorders. She consumes far too much tiktok, Discord and I think 4chan also.

When I was diagnosed on the spectrum I registered on a very popular ASD form. And I shared the diagnosis and asked for some advice from others who live with it. I felt they would be the best people to answer my questions. Much like here on NMP in regards to anxiety and depression.

I discovered most people were self diagnosed. I quickly left that forum in particular.

But Discord is a whole different level. The ASD servers I've been on are all young people, mostly undiagnosed, and rather than try to seek resolution to their problems they use their self diagnosed illness as justification to continue being who they are.

I don't get this new generation of people.

NMP is one of the only forums where I've found genuine people.

I know what you're saying; it makes a mockery of those of us who have genuinely been diagnosed, and I fear could easily send things backwards where people like us are considered a hindrance to society and start to become increasingly stigmatised once again due to those self/fake- diagnosing, attention-seeking muppets, and a lot of the progress that has largely been made especially since the 90s starts to become imperilled.

Sorry to sound so pessimistic, but unfortunately there's always going to be certain elements of society that love to seek scapegoats of some form or another.

And don't get me started on all the indignation expressed towards so-called 'woke' culture, especially by the hard-Righters.

People who falsely plead poverty have always got on my wick too, who also make a mockery of those who are genuinely in severe dire straits.

[WiredIncorrectly]

I thought I was fine. But I've had a lingering nausea and vomiting. The past 3 nights the nausea has been bad and this morning I vomited. Last night I struggled to sleep because I had an overwhelming feeling that I was going to be sick. Tonight I feel the same.

I'm not eating much. I don't have much of an appetite. All I've ate today is 2 pieces of toast, and a bit of chocolate. I had beans and cheese on toast yesterday. I don't think I've eaten properly since the 24th.

I seen my uncle today. He visited last week and I passed my illness I had to him. He looked really bad and he's had it for a week. He's on antibiotics but he had the vomiting too. So did my ex. I'm a bit worried about him because he looked pale, and he's lost over a stone in weight. He was telling me how it made it difficult for him to breath. And while he was here he was sweating a lot.

I just can't help think that there's something seriously wrong with me. And him. Maybe it's the anxiety. I hope so.

I avoided the cough. My brother who is staying with me caught it the other day and he spent 3 days in bed. He has a terrible cough :(

I'm going to try and sleep but feeling like this makes it difficult. I am actually hoping it was COVID and this is a by product of that.

[WiredIncorrectly]

Now got a significant loss of taste.

I ate a zinger burger and spicy wings earlier today and noticed I couldn't taste the spice and could only taste the food a little. My ex bought me kebab meat and chips tonight with chilli sauce. Couldn't taste much. Couldn't taste the spice. I love this chip shop because their food is really nice. But couldn't taste much at all.

I ate a bombay badboy pot noodle the other day and had to bin it because I couldn't really taste it. I actually sent a complaint via email that my pot noodle had the wrong sauce sachet.

My smell is fine. I can smell what the food should taste like. But can't taste it. It's like everything is bland and bitter if that makes sense.

It's frustrating with all these after effects of having whatever illness I had. I feel like it was COVID. Doesn't do well for my health-anxiety-brain. My HA is better today. I've accepted whatever is going on is likely a result of the illness and I need to allow some time for recovery before I have justified reason for concern.

Weighted myself. Still over 14 stone so I can't be doing too bad. That reminded me of the time I had bad HA and I'd weight myself 5-10 times a day. After weeks doing this I convinced myself I was losing weight and I had the big C.

I'm looking after the dogs for the ex over the weekend. She's off to see a sick family member with the lad. Cooking a curry tomorrow so I best be able to taste that!

[Lencoboy]

Now got a significant loss of taste.

I ate a zinger burger and spicy wings earlier today and noticed I couldn't taste the spice and could only taste the food a little. My ex bought me kebab meat and chips tonight with chilli sauce. Couldn't taste much. Couldn't taste the spice. I love this chip shop because their food is really nice. But couldn't taste much at all.

I ate a bombay badboy pot noodle the other day and had to bin it because I couldn't really taste it. I actually sent a complaint via email that my pot noodle had the wrong sauce sachet.

My smell is fine. I can smell what the food should taste like. But can't taste it. It's like everything is bland and bitter if that makes sense.

It's frustrating with all these after effects of having whatever illness I had. I feel like it was COVID. Doesn't do well for my health-anxiety-brain. My HA is better today. I've accepted whatever is going on is likely a result of the illness and I need to allow some time for recovery before I have justified reason for concern.

Weighted myself. Still over 14 stone so I can't be doing too bad. That reminded me of the time I had bad HA and I'd weight myself 5-10 times a day. After weeks doing this I convinced myself I was losing weight and I had the big C.

I'm looking after the dogs for the ex over the weekend. She's off to see a sick family member with the lad. Cooking a curry tomorrow so I best be able to taste that!

How about doing a LFT in order to ascertain as to whether you may have Covid or not?

Anyways, it seems that you've been through a highly stressful week with the PDSA fob-off and whatnot, so there's also the chance it could very well be stress-related.

[WiredIncorrectly]

I wasn't really bothered about testing at first, but now my taste is wonky I feel I should. Not sure if it's too late. Would be good to keep some tests handy for the future. Do they expire?

I cooked a very spicey curry last night and although it made me sweat I couldn't feel any spice in my mouth. I got a little paranoid and thought maybe I didn't put chilli in it at all. So I ordered some carolina reaper crisps on Just Eat to test. I couldn't feel the spice from them either.

I'm a bit worried (health anxiety) because I still have some taste and my smell is fine.

I'm in a deep hole at the moment. I need to try and climb out of it. It's hard.

I had a nasty realization last night. I woke up around 3am with the realization that one day I will die. And I know this already, but it sort of hit me for 6. I couldn't accept it. There was intense fear and worry. But today, I don't feel like that. I don't know if it was a revelation, or a message. There's something significant about the dream.

Maybe it could be interpreted as: "These are the facts of life. Accept. There's no point in worrying. You will die one day, so enjoy life today".

Why do I fear death, and at the same time not want to exist?! I can't wrap my head around my own logic.

[Lencoboy]

Why do I fear death, and at the same time not want to exist?! I can't wrap my head around my own logic.

I've always been of the opinion that some people get some kind of kicks from things like this.

And I don't mean you personally.

Plus they also seem to get kicks from declinism in general and revel in all this pessimistic 'we're all going to hell in a handcart' lark, while not necessarily trying to come up with any potential solutions, and even pooh-poohing them whenever any are suggested.

As for Covid LFT kits, they do have a use-by date printed on the packaging.

[BlueIris]

Also, the buffer solution evaporates and renders them useless.

[WiredIncorrectly]

Still feeling a bit under the weather. My chest is sore when I breath, and I keep having to clear my throat.

I had to take the dog to the vets yesterday. In fear I was going to be too late I left too early. I got in the bus into the town center and had a nasty panic attack on the bus. I got off in the town center and was due to get another bus. But, I was 2 and a half hours early and I really didn't want to get on another bus. I didn't know what else to do. So I walked from the town center to the vet. It took about an hour and a half at a fast pace. I much preferred walking to getting on the bus. I really hate busses.

The walk was no problem. He was seen to. And then instead of getting the bus back, I walked it back home. It took another hour and a half. I ended up doing 9 miles in total. I'm very proud of the achievement. So long as I have the dog with me I can walk anywhere on a good day because I feel safe with him. It's people I have the problem with.

This morning I feel a bit rough on the chest so I think I done too much too soon. Not sure if this is the start of the cough, or whether it will pass.

This thing is lingering about the ex is on another dose of antibiotics.

[WiredIncorrectly]

Getting doctors appointment for today. Wheezing a lot, and coughing like crazy. Chest feels like it's on fire. Coughing up stuff.

I had a feeling I did too much too soon. People warned me, I didn't listen.

I've had this for almost a whole month now.