Originally Posted by
jojo2316
Hello all,
I am having a bit of a struggle at the moment, having been more stable-ish (anxiety is always a background hum for me), for some months. I wonder if it’s partly my age - im 47 - and the fact that hormones are doing weird things and also that .,. Well… im getting old; and lots of people i love are getting even older. And it feels like we are all standing on such unstable ground, and that bad things are just through the next door - if not for me then for someone i love. The result of this kind of thinking is constant fear, constant checking, and sadness. I feel close to tears, and close to melting into a gibbering heap of panic. I feel like ive lost my anchor in a storm, and everything looks very volatile to me (it doesn’t feel absurd to me that yesterday morning i was calling the doctor about a suspicious mole and yesterday evening i was showing symptoms of a brain tumour. It just feels like these are the normal everyday dangers we face!!!)
Anyway. Writing it down has helped a bit. And i love this community so much. You’ve been here for me in my darkest moments- so thank you! Xx