Need some help someone to talk to. 1 week ago the x left me after 7 years she is the love of my life and starting dating someone else the day she self well she left with him. We have a 4year old daughter together. She has not even made any contact at all not even to her kid. I have tried to text her but nothing back. She left me because I didn’t show affection I have bpd so well you’s no. My head is racing bad having panic attacks flat, I can’t eat or sleep and can’t get her out of my head. Please help me through this. I don’t want to be alive anymore. Doctors have given me dizapam but I’m to scared to take it. Have a phobia with meds