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[Soveryverytired]

Hello everyone

I used to be a member on this site some time a go and it was a great comfort when i was going through my darkest days. Hello again. Sorry to go straight off on one

I recently came off of Sertraline (tapered off slowly), towards the end I was taking 30mg every 3 days and then I stopped as 3 days become 4, then 5 etc. I have only been fully off them 4 weeks. I did this without speaking to a doctor but I was feeling totally fine on a quarter of a tablet every 4 days etc.

Anyway. I felt like all was going well but then I had a stressful few weeks which resulted in an anxiety attack last Saturday. Ever since I have been really anxious again. I haven't had an anxiety attack in a long time so I guess the shock of it has just triggered everything off again. I am hyperfocusing on my throat, swallowing and panicking if I think there is a lump, or if I get a strange taste, or a weird smell in my sinuses etc etc. Sometimes there is no excuse to panic and then I end up just feeling anxious about getting anxious. This was what I used to focus on back when I had bad anxiety

Does anyone else hyperfocus on their throat?

I guess it's either feeling like this every day or going back on something, which I would much rather do. I don't feel like I have the strength to go through all this crap again.
Perhaps I am jumping the gun and I need to wait a while for symptoms to subside or perhaps my brain just knows anxiety and I will always be anxious?

Does anyone else feel that way? That once your brain knows anxiety that's it? You will be anxious forever?

I am going to call the doctors tomorrow and arrange an appointment. Perhaps I just need a low dose of something to keep my anxiety boxed up?

Does anyone else also get really frustrated because they know the thing they are anxious about deep down is not really an issue but they still get anxious? It's like the irrational and rational parts of my brain are constantly fighting each other : (

Many thanks for reading and listening

[venusbluejeans]

Hiya Soveryverytired and welcome to NMP

Why not take a look at our articles on our home page, they contain a wealth of information and
are a great starting place for your time on the forum.

I hope you find the as site helpful and informative as I have and that you get the help and
support you need here and hope that you meet a few friends along the way

[smogie]

This is me to a tee it’s particularly bad at the moment it’s like I’m looking for things to be wrong

[smogie]

I also went through a throat swallowing phase ended up in a n e convinced there was something in my throat there wasn’t it was panic and anxiety it’s very common for anxiety sufferers to have these symptoms

[Soveryverytired]

I also went through a throat swallowing phase ended up in a n e convinced there was something in my throat there wasn’t it was panic and anxiety it’s very common for anxiety sufferers to have these symptoms

Hi Smogie

Thanks for your reply. It's comforting to hear that other people go through a phase of hyper focusing on their throat. It's exhausting! Yesterday I was ok and today I feel depressed and anxiety is in the background. Probably because I'm feeling down. I really don't want to work through all this again. It's so hard. Already I am starting to think about how I am going to cope with events out etc, things I should be looking forwards to, not worrying about. I wish my brain would function the same as other people instead of torment me so much : (

[smogie]

Totally agree I’m going through a really tough time really weepy and depressed and yes it’s daunting when you’ve been through it before and know you have to face it all again I’m even going to try acupuncture on Saturday I’m desperate to find something to make me feel better

[Soveryverytired]

Totally agree I’m going through a really tough time really weepy and depressed and yes it’s daunting when you’ve been through it before and know you have to face it all again I’m even going to try acupuncture on Saturday I’m desperate to find something to make me feel better

Are you on anything for your anxiety? Is there anything you get anxious about in particular? It really is so tough. I'm really sorry you are having such a crap time of it 😔 the key is definitely in staying positive but sadly it's not easy to be positive all of the time x

[smogie]

Just propranolol as and when been off the ads about seven weeks been on so many for so long and gp didn’t think they were helping I worry mostly about health stuff but at the moment feels more like depression when in the past it’s always been more anxiety I’ve never been as weepy and tearful as I am now I’m paying for some private therapy but again don’t think it’s helping ��