Hi. I’m not sure if this is the right place or even if there’s any real advice anyone can give, but I thought writing it down might help slightly.
The last few months I’ve been feeling low and could feel my anxiety and depression creeping back in. Recently my neighbours loud music has triggered my anxiety to such a severe degree I’m not really sure how to cope. My mental health has been generally good for several years, after an extremely bad spell around 15 years ago, so I’m really struggling to cope. My flat has zero soundproofing and the family upstairs have always been loud, but it’s never really affected me, I can ignore footsteps and talking really as long as it doesn’t interfere with my sleep, although I would obviously prefer if there was soundproofing. Recently they have taken to playing extremely loud house music. And I mean unpleasantly loud. But because of the sporadic nature of when they play it, I found myself more and more unable to relax at home, as I was constantly paranoid the music would suddenly come on. They have turned it on at 10pm with no warning on a Sunday night, so obviously no real care about wether we are affected by it downstairs. I have messaged politely and asked if possible to wear headphones or turn it off when it’s late at night but they essentially said “well there’s no soundproofing so we can hear you and your mum too” so suffice to say it hasn’t stopped. The problem is that this isn’t really a particularly new problem and it’s never affected me to this degree. But I am now having panic attacks and anxiety attacks all through the day, while I’m at work, and trying to avoid being at home as much as possible. I can now see that the anxiety around the music has triggered me in to a full panic/anxiety episode that I see no way out of. I dread going home and I’m not sure what I can do. The anxiety has made my appetite drop and I feel nauseous and light head frequently. I’m suffering from headaches a lot. I generally feel like my chest is being squeezed and I can’t fully catch my breath. Even when it’s the early hours I struggle to get to sleep because I fear they will play music suddenly, although they have never played it past midnight (which I guess is something). I’ve even contemplated going to stay in a hotel, which would only be an option for a couple of nights, and I feel like I probably wouldn’t relax as I would know I’d have to go home eventually. Even my mum, who also hates it, has started to worry as it seems to be affecting me so severely, even when we know it’s not going to happen.
Sorry for such a long message. I just wasn’t really sure who I could even talk to about it. I guess I’m wondering if anyone has any advice or tips for living with it as best I can until I’m maybe able to move, as there’s nothing I can do to stop it.
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