Hi,
I’ve suffered with depression all my adult life, but have recently had the worst mental health crisis I’ve ever had (which is really saying something). It was triggered by getting out of a controlling and coercive relationship and my ex continued to stalk me until he was arrested. I ended up in A&E because I was suicidal and I shut down for about 11 weeks. I’m now on week 16 of sertraline and week 10 of mirtazapine and I’ve had some fragile ‘okayness’ with background dread and feeling like something’s off. I’ve also ridden some waves of anxiety and managed to go back to work. Whilst I was still having my struggles, I had pockets of genuine relief, particularly when teaching - I could actually feel like myself again. About 10 days ago, I ran out of sertraline so only took 50mg instead of 150mg (the next day was back up to full dose). About 24 hours after the lower dose I started to feel more off and like the anxiety was ramping up. Since then, I’ve experienced the most intense wave I’ve had for about 6 weeks. I’m waking up shaking again which had finally stopped, and I’m scared that I’m back to square one. Has anyone had any experiences like this and come through it?