Flu, and depression :(

[WiredIncorrectly]

I did a COVID test, negative. So has to be a flu.

I became ill last Tuesday. First day I was rough, and I've been getting over it since. I developed a chest infection, but thankfully that's now calming down.

I've also got black mould which isn't helping. My brother came to stay, and he left a shirt in the bathroom. When he got home it was covered in black mould. I checked my jacket that was in the bathroom and there was black mould all over the back of it.

I feel like I'm losing control. I'm positive the mould is affecting me negatively. I feel very lazy at the moment with no motivation to anything. I've got so much to do around me, but just no motivation to do anything at all. My house is a mess. I'm freezing cold. I feel icky because the house is a mess and I need to clean it, but don't feel very well to do so.

I've noticed I haven't been bathing or washing as much as I used to. I used to bath every day and was OCD over being clean. But I've gone the opposite way. I hate it. But everything feels like a challenge. Putting washing on, having a bath, ironing clothes etc. I just feel so tired. I feel guilty and annoyed at myself for being in this situation.

I'm having vivid recurring dreams. The same location. The same setting. It's always traumatic. The dream is about the vile lady we lived next door to and how much she destroyed my mental health over 8 years. Living on eggshells constantly. And then the breakup, and my ex being attacked. I keep dreaming I'm living in that house, protecting my family from her. My brain relives those feelings every night. That can't be good.

Feeling like a chronic failure to be honest. In my 40's, no job, no career. Got booted off the dentist for missing 3 appointments because of anxiety. Now I have no lower front teeth, and no way to get a denture.

I've got too many problems on my shoulders at the moment I feel like I'm drowning in problems. These are the times I'd usually drink alcohol to forget about it and feel happier. But I do not do that. I had one slip up before, but I haven't drank since then.

Just sucks when every day feels like a fight.

Hope everyone is ok and pushing through. God bless.

[WiredIncorrectly]

Flu gone, just annoying cough now. Turned into a chest infection.

I've been watching some old documentaries. This show was great, this one is on the Lochness Monster. I don't care if it does or doesn't exist, I just love the way old shows were presented, and the sound.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4zKfAakOykI

[Scissel]

...I've also got black mould which isn't helping. My brother came to stay, and he left a shirt in the bathroom. When he got home it was covered in black mould. I checked my jacket that was in the bathroom and there was black mould all over the back of it.

Oh, James ... I'm sorry to hear about this. My advice is you should purchase dehumidifiers for your house and try punting those damp rid things In the bathroom.

Other than that I just hope whatever this is it will clear up for you soon. I'm glad (at least) the Flu is gone and try guaifenesin and green tea - helps me when I get sick.

Feel better and thank you for the documentary recommendation.

Sal

PS: Could you be suffering form allergic reaction to the mold?

EDIT:

Sorry about the mistake and typo.

[WiredIncorrectly]

Yeah I do have reactions to the mould. In this instance I have flu, caught it from my uncle. I'm going to tackle the mould this weekend and put some of those bags up. I know the ones you mean I've got some. I'll get a dehumidifier in the new year.

Good day today managed to get to the small Tesco with the doggy. Been watching Bowery Boys, it's so good: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7dKP9uZwo9I

I've never had to experience black mould before, soon as the summer ended and it got wetter it started to be a problem for my chest. I used to wake up in my room with a sore throat and like I got an apple stuck in it. When I sleep in living room that doesn't happen.

I need to do a spring clean this weekend because I've let myself and the house go. Granted I was ill but living in what I perceive to be mess makes me uncomfortable. Think I might be a horder :S

[Scissel]

...because I've let myself and the house go...

I can relate as I've also been struggling pretty badly to keep up on self care. Good luck getting things back together - sound's like you're on your way to improving from that nasty flu. I'll be sure to check out the Bowery Boys later tonight when I am lonely as hell.

[WiredIncorrectly]

I can relate as I've also been struggling pretty badly to keep up on self care. Good luck getting things back together - sound's like you're on your way to improving from that nasty flu. I'll be sure to check out the Bowery Boys later tonight when I am lonely as hell.

Much better, thank you Do you struggle with loneliness? I do sometimes too. When my son stays over, or my brother, I really enjoy it and it lifts my spirits. I will cook for them every night so it means I eat good meals and have a good routine. When they go I feel like I have no purpose to do any of that. On the flip side if they're here longer than 3 days I get aggitated and want my space back (I don't tell them that lol). My son knows about it I tell him everything so that he understands.

I was very manic yesterday. I was convinced I wanted to go back to University and study digital forensics, then I had a local business idea (can discuss in PM if you wish) so I started doing a lot of study on that. I write 2 articles for my substack, but both are incomplete. There was more, but all around it was draining. I kept switching tasks and contexts. Thankfully today I feel slow and normal.

Hope you're doing ok. Always here to chat.

[Carnation]

Is your mould on the wall?
Your landlord would be responsible for that and it's a serious breach of their letting.

[WiredIncorrectly]

Is your mould on the wall?
Your landlord would be responsible for that and it's a serious breach of their letting.

There's just a patch in the bathroom. I removed it, sanded it, wiped it with soap water and dried it with a hair dryer. Painted over with mould protection paint. Fingers crossed it stays away. The parts I done in the bedroom have been mould free but now need to clean the windows and paint around the window area. Just having some food and I'm going to tackle that.

Yes I've asked for ventilation in the bathroom as there is non.

[Carnation]

Yes, that would help.
Well done on sorting it out though, you did well.

[WiredIncorrectly]

Thank you Carnation. I hope you are doing well.