Is there anyone else who feels any or a combination of these things?
Firstly I'm now in my 50s. Just adding that for context as things do get more complex the older we get, with people around us having more challenges etc but some of what I say may still be relatable by younger people.
Some might not be. I've lost quite a few significant people in my life. The real good people. The people that loved me.
I'm now in a place where I have contacts, even close ones and family, but they are all quite selfish people who are all about ego and positioning of themselves. While they may care about me, they don't know what love is and when they talk to me it's all about them. They actively avoid listening to me.
I don't want this to sound like I'm having a little pity party, it's just what I feel, so it's real.
I'm living in a new town and not feeling at home. My old town is only a short ride away but has changed a lot recently and is becoming unrecognisable. I still feel lost when I'm there visiting my mother. When I leave to go home she doesn't ever pick up on the dread that I feel. I've told her and just get 'hmmm.'
I wake up very sad due to where I am and I miss my old home. I have a close friend out of town but he never visits. Says it's too long a journey and too busy, been saying it for years now. Another close friend is going through a hard time and with my health atm, we just don't see each other. I've been avoiding it as it's an ordeal to travel and see her but I plan to when my issues are better (chronic health things, not serious but seriously problematic at times)
I love my own company I just feel lost atm in this new town.
Can anyone relate?


Reply With Quote
