I really doubt this is going to be read, but i'm so determined this year to put my oldself behind me that i think this would be a good starting point.
When i was 13, i had a severe asthma attack which was on and off for a few days..it sometimes stopped me breathing for a couple of seconds. It was a really scary few days, and i was very ill..i didn't sleep in fear of not being able to breathe. After that, if i was ever in a situation, where i felt i couldn't breathe..i would panic. I had my first panic attack the following june, and it was an awful experience. Luckily, i've been able to control them ever since. and its been a while since i've had an attack when i've started shaking. I usually get the onset anxiety, the shallow breathing..feeling hot, restless, heart beating fast, and the pain in the chest.
I know that its only me that has control over my anxiety. And i feel so stupid and worthless that I know i'm being silly when i have 'a turn' lol. Yet i have to take a good 10mins out of my time to calm down.
I've been trying to find a trigger for these attacks, so far i think its when i get a twinge in my chest, or a scarf is a bit too tight. Also, hot rooms, in the back seat of a car and even at the gym..just the idea of getting my heart rate up scares me incase anything happens. Yet logic tells me that my chances are very low to be having a heart attack at the age of 18.
Anyway, by september i want to get over it..i'm hoping to move out and go to university, and i certainly don't want my anxiety to be over my head, and to feel embaressed about them. I'm looking into hypnotherepy at the moment, are there any treatments you can reccomend? and has anyone else had similar experiences??
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