This seems to have cropped up a lot lately so I had a think and this is what I came up with. Whether it's accurate or covered everything I can't say because they're just my thoughts but maybe to someone, something somewhere within this will make some sense.
We tend to have a sensitive nature and so try to avoid emotional hurt. This is so intense that it creates a fear of being hurt and so when we are hurt we find it hard to deal with.
I suspect that this fear of hurt stems from many causes. When we were young, people who were close to us may have let us down, they may have left us for unavoidable reasons causing us a fear of abandonment. We may have been left on our own for long periods or belittled so felt unloved or received a lack of love and attention. I’m sure there are other causes.
All these things would create a lack of self esteem so to prevent us feeling hurt and alone we do our best to please others so they won’t hurt and leave us. However, hurt cannot be avoided but because of our low self esteem that has been created, when we do feel hurt we automatically assume the fault lies with us rather than it being unavoidable or that the fault lies with the person who has hurt us.
We doubt ourselves because of our insecurities, thinking that we did something wrong so we’re not liked. We start thinking we must be a bad person so don’t deserve to be liked. We feel rejected, blame ourselves and beat ourselves up for being a failure. Sometimes it develops into thinking we must punish ourselves so it can lead to self harming because we feel such a bad person but the self harming also relieves the hurt we feel. However, the relief doesn’t last long so it becomes a frequent habit. The hurt we feel can later lead to resentment and bitterness which will affect us as we grow older.
Sometimes people will take advantage of our kind nature because they know we won’t attach blame to them as we always see the blame within us because of our fear that if we accuse them they’ll walk away leaving us to cope alone.
Yes, we have to build our self esteem and our self confidence so that we don’t feel so insecure but one other important thing to remember is that if we always try to please others to avoid hurt, we will never find out who our “genuine” friends are. Those who aren’t genuine will continue to use us and one day walk away leaving us hurt.
If we lower our barriers, confront others when we feel hurt without feeling guilt, the genuine people will always come back providing us with a stronger sense of security. Those who don’t come back aren’t worth worrying about. Remember the saying “we find out who our friends are when we’re in need”.
Try not to allow the fear of hurt prevent us from releasing our feelings in a positive way rather than inwardly on ourselves. If we don’t release the feelings outwardly, they create anxiety within us and all the associated symptoms such as panic. Don’t let the fear of being abandoned or being let down keep us in solitude assuming all will treat us as those before and so prevent us from attempting to make new friends because genuine friends can always be found especially within people who understand us who have similar fears.
If we always try to avoid being disliked, we will never discover our genuine friends and so we could be used, we will continue to live in fear of hurt which will add to our anxieties and when we are hurt, we’ll never learn to deal with the hurt in a positive way without always looking for bad in us and punishing ourselves. Our fear of hurt will create a situation where we’re more liable to being hurt. Our fear will control us in an endless cycle of hurt and so we’ll keep blaming ourselves until we break it.
However much we try to always be liked by others, living will always mean losing people but we need to learn who we can trust and who we can seek comfort from in times of need by letting go of those who hurt us without the hurt they’ve caused affecting us, whether the hurt was deliberate or unavoidable.
If we attempt to keep control of ensuring we’re always liked so that we don’t lose people, we will create anxiety within us because our fear of hurt will not enable us to deal with it positively when it unavoidably happens and so will prevent us building our low self esteem and therefore keep our anxieties alive.