I became a grandma yesterday for the first time to a baby boy, daughter in law had to have a C section so will be in hospital a while loner than a normal birth, I really really want to go and see them both but, it's always the but and if, what if, sometimes I think you can do this and then the but's come into mind, what if you get the awful feeling when your away from your comfort zone that you hate to feel ,my sister in law who goes all over the world on holidays and any where she wants, asked me if I had been to see them yet, I said I hadn't plucked my nerve up, she glibly said oh I would be there like a shot, I should have said well unfortunately your not me are you, to see what she would have said to that, some people have no idea do they perhaps if they could have an hour like us they would soon change their tune fast, or perhaps not even cope with true anxiety at all.