I was in the midst of a creative void in my life, and it seems like I focused all of my energy on two work friendships last summer. We spent a great deal of time together - even outside of work - and enjoyed each others' company immensely. Alas it seems that I made them more important than anything else in my life. After some time they approached me to indicate that I was just being 'a bit too much ' so I tried to back off, but then found myself analyzig every conversation and interactiom, and my behavior became even more odd.
I was called out for my behavior on two different occasions, but, alas, I didn't seem to grow a lot because of it.
I'm now at a point where one girl won't even speak to me and the other is just cold business. I sent them an email a month ago stating my seriousness n getting help for my problem, but no resonse has been forthcoming. I laid out gudelnes in my email about how I would keep my distance and just let things progress.
But it's been a month, and I'm frustrated beyond belief.
Each workday is a new world of pain as I experience their coldness.
I don't know how to move forward when I've opted to tie my own hands.
GAFF