Lordy, my angst just goes on and on. I'm trying to force myself to get out more but 50% of the time I just feel worse for doing so. I have this obsession about making other people feel uncomfortable or hostile to me.
I started a yoga class last week, hoping it would help me relax. Just had my 2nd session and it's OK when we're doing the excercises, but when we have to watch the teacher I just get obsessed that I'm making another person in the room uncomfortable. I usually "pick on" an attractive woman and when I see her show signs of discomfort, like shielding her face from me, I just plunge into despair. I just have no control over this. I WANT to reach out to people but I'm just waiting for the rejection - I kind of KNOW it has to come, and it always does.
I've been soldiering on with this for 3 years now and it's wearing me out :(
Sorry, I know I'm not the only one with this sort of problem - just needed to get it off my chest!