Wow, its been a while since I've felt really anxious but I'm having all sorts of symptoms at the moment from chest pain, adrenaline rush, constant health worries, funny tummy ... I'm so worried its going to end up in a full on PA.
I know the cause of all this, hubby Steve has at last had 2 job offers, one safe but boring job as FD for a bus company in Rotherham and one 9 month contract in a business consultant role in Manchester with really good pay. The 2nd one is more appealing to him but of course long term security is an issue.
Bless, I can understand how tough this is for him (he's feeling terrible) but I feel like my life is on hold until he makes his mind up. We'd def have to move for the Rotherham job and possibly for the Manchester one if it became permenant. But the thing is I'd set my heart on starting a PhD at Teesside next year and now its looking nearly impossible. After 4 years at uni, I feel like its all been wasted as I can't call myself a psychologist by any means unless I go the whole way and do a doctorate.
Sorry for sounding so negative but this is really getting on top of me, it looks like I'll have to leave my home, my family, my friends and give up on my career all in one fell swoop and frankly, I'm gutted but at the same time I'm trying to support Steve (although I don't think I'm doing a very good job of it)!
Thanks for listening
Love Jo xxx
"courage is resistance to fear, mastery of fear, not absence of fear"