Re: Hospital appointment
Hi Mumjoe,
I totally understand how you are feeling as i was in the same position last year except my daughter was admitted as an emergency not a planned appointment. They thought she had perthes disease and may need an operation during the night so one of us was going to have to stay with her. Well i knew it wasn't going to be me but was also terrified as i don't go anywhere without my husband and felt so guilty that i would rather he was with me than staying with our youngest who was only 7 at the time. In the end i stayed at my mom and dads with my eldest and my husband kept his mobile on silent all night so i could reach him. But i still had 3 days where we had to spend all day in the hospital and the only way i coped was firstly explaining to my husband how i wanted him to help me if i freaked out ( i was scared of everyone crowding me and staring) and secondly i kept telling myself that if i did have an attack i was in the best possible place for immediate help, it was a terrible time and anyone who tells you that in an emergency you forget all about yourself and the panic and concentrate on the child has never felt true panic, it is a very selfish condition that revolves around the sufferer and not their family. I look back now and my husband will say i coped really well when in fact i spent a manic 3 days trying to keep it together -- but i did and am really glad that my daughter never realised why i couldn't stay with her. Good luck and have a good talk with your partner before you go as to how he can help you get through it.
Jacq x
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