I've suffered from social phobia for the past 3 years after being free of it for about 8 years. Last autumn I had a breakdown and have been struggling since then. I spend a large part of every day wanting to cry, with my muscles tense and feeling shivery, and with stomach cramp and headaches.
I've been forcing myself to go out more and on the face of it, I'm not the recluse I used to be. But the battle of controlling my behaviour is so hard, and the strain is really getting to me. I have constant headaches and stomach cramp; my muscles are constantly tense and I feel shivery. It's been 3 months now since I started joining more clubs etc.: I thought if I spent enough time with other people, I'd get used to it and the anxiety would go away. Well, it hasn't, unfortunately. I can cope, but I can't actively enjoy myself, which makes it all seem rather pointless. Meditation helps me, but not quite enough.
The annoying thing is that the constant tension has led to constant general anxiety, so that I can't even relax when I'm on my own any more. It sucks.
Anyway this post is fairly pointless - just wanted to get it off my chest
Thanks,
Francis