Hi all
Yesterday I had my first visit wuth a stress therapist who specialises in anxiety and panic. I was understandably nervous before the session and drove to the session shaking with a huge lump in my throat (convinced that I my throat would close at any minute and I would choke to death [}]!!!!!!!). To cut a long story short the session was very useful, he mostly spent the time assuring me that I would regain my life (and quite quickly) and I came away on a high.
I had a shocking nightmare in the night which woke me up in a muck sweat with a raging pulse etc. Somehow, and don't ask me how, it did not turn into a PA and returned no normal within minutes. Then this morning I dropped Millie at school and felt another PA rise on my way back through the church. I had planned to go the the post office but was not up for it so retreated home :( However...half an hour later I suddenly had the urge to get on with it so did just that. Drove to the cashpoint (shaky and with throat lump), then got to the post office. Sat outside and thought no - I can't do it but I just made myself go to the door. Once at the door I though just go in and buy some chewing gum (helps with the throat thing), at the counter and still OK I thought yeah - post my letters. Got in the line, waited my turn all calm and happy. Then even lined up again to buy a magazine. RESULT! - Strangly when I got home I realised that I had forgotton a parcel to post - without a second thought hopped back in the car.
I think I have realised another thing today as a result of the above. A couple of weeks ago a bad school drop off reflected the mood for my whole day however I realised today that a bad moment can be quickly replaced with a positive one. Not worried at all about the afternoon school run as I know it will be OK - why wouldn't it be!!!
Hope that you are all making progress too. This will not beat us [:P]
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