I think I may have covered this subject before but I feel it’s worth covering again because it seems to be a common cause of anxiety.
These are a few things I've learnt.
We are often born with a sensitive nature so we are often affected by other peoples behaviour towards us, especially from those we are closest to such as our parents and relatives. Mistreatment can take different forms. It could be physical or emotional. It could be belittling or being abandoned etc.
If therefore we are mistreated from a young age and the hurts and pains we experience are suppressed and not released in the correct way, we often develop different forms of anxiety in later life. Often though, we are unaware that the mistreatment in our past and our present day anxieties are linked.
My anxieties started a long ago in my past and different events have contributed to them but when I spoke to a counsellor about my anxieties and explained to her about how my wife treated me in recent years due to her illness, she said to me, well, actually you’ve been emotionally abused even if it wasn’t intentional. She then explained how my abuse and anxieties such as my panic attacks were connected. This though is just the most recent contributing part to my puzzle.
When we experience hurt, we tend to absorb and lock the feelings up because we don’t know how to deal with them. This suppression of emotion then causes feelings of anger and frustration. We become stressed and irritable which often leads to a depressed state because we feel trapped by our emotions.
Together with this, the constant belittling and other forms of mistreatment create a sense of low self esteem. We feel worthless and unloved which lead us to hating ourselves for what we feel we are and blaming ourselves instead of those at fault. Sometimes it can lead to self harming as a negative method to release the pain together with feeling that we must be a bad person so we need to punish ourselves just as others have punished us in the past when in reality we’re kind caring people.
However, in another way hurt can affect us, we can begin to create barriers in an attempt to protect ourselves from being hurt because of the fear previous hurts have created. This “safe” world where we only rely on ourselves and cope alone because of not feeling able to trust people because we feel they’ll always let us down as others have before can also create anxiety and panic within us because our fear isolates ourselves from others.
Just as in so many other ways, once we feel restricted by fear, our whole outlook on life and interactions can be affected so that there is a knock on effect.
Living though means experiencing hurt because it’s unavoidable so we have to learn a better way of dealing with it. This is where a counsellor can help us to release these emotions to allow healing within. They help us to learn for ourselves how to come to terms with our past, to accept rather than confront and to lower barriers to live a more relaxed approach to life.
Counselling brings suppressed hurt that we’ve placed in a box and kept bottled to the surface which often means that counselling can make us feel worse before we begin to feel better. Therefore, since we’ve suffered for so long and become so used to suppressing hurt, it can take a long time to heal. Understanding the causes to our anxieties can though be a first step to recovery.