Hi, I wanted to start this post because I know there are a lot of us awaiting hospital tests and are scared !!
I have had problems with my boob for a while, went to docs last Friday, given a course of antibiotics (I am terrified of meds side effects but am coping with them and only slight nausea), but was referred to the breast clinic. Yesteday I got the call to go next Monday.
I am pleased its so soon, but spent the day having periods where I just didnt know how I would cope, I don't like hospitals and it is a full days appointment involving various tests.
I made the decision to go with my bf just so he knows which clinic I am in but then to be left, I tend to cope better without not only having to worry about myself but also who is with me ! But he will be nearby if I need a hand to hold.
I lay in bed crying last night and as we do working out all the senarios and should I start writing letters to the children and even which rings to leave to each of them, I was sobbing quietly trying not to let the children know how I felt.
Today I got up with a renewed positiveness, (although I am crying as I write this !!). I got up, got dressd and went for a walk to he shops, good because I usually take the car.
I wanted to use this as sort of a diary for those going through the same thing, but please it is not a sympathy post, I know you all care and have helped me so much in the chat room.
This is just my way of coping with a situation that is so scary in lots of different ways and gives me and others the chance to share, vent, cry or get hugs.
Christine xx