Ever since i was a child everything has been a struggle and whenever i have ever done anything that is big and brave (for me) it has either not worked or gone wrong and i feel like i have failed..I do not know how to be positive and if i am positive stuff still seems to go wrong so i anticipate the worst and sure enough it seems to happen..I am tired now and i wonder what is the point of my life as its so difficult that i feel that i can never relax enough to enjoy it as i am just waiting for the next thing to go wrong.. There are times when i wish that i would just go to sleep and not wake up as i feel so sad and scared of living..I wonder what it must feel like to be happy and worry/anxiety free..I seem to have reached a real low and am really struggling today........