Please dont laugh.

If I could only practise what I preach. I know all the stuff having been on and off propranalol for 12 years. I can deal with my anxiety and have learnt to calm myself in panic the only thing that I have a major major problem with and always have had is going to the hairdressers! I make myself go every six weeks because I know if I cancel that appointment I will never go back and then it will have beaten me.

My hairdresser is very good and to a certain extent I think knows my problem as I go all red and blotchy. I am usually sat in the chair for an hour and a half (you know us girls, colour,cut,blow dry). I know some of you will think vanity but it is not really the hairdresser thing it is just if I let that beat me then other demons will rear their heads and I do not want that to happen.

I know it is the fear that once I am sat in that chair with colour on my head I cannot leave without creating a scene. My next appointment is next Thursday and already it is making me anxious.

Hayley