Agro and strong derealisation

[memyselfandIT]

Hey guys, u may have talked to me on the chat room and you'll know a bit mre about me but if not my names Adam and basically ive just joined up to this site for some support and to talk to people who are just like me. Up untill the 17th of april 08 i thot i was the only one in the world with this but hey turns out im not!!Basically im 22 yr old male, and about 2 yrs ago i began displaying symptoms of very light agrophobia/mental anxiety. i began avoiding social events and going to crowded areas or places.and to cut a long story short im now housebound and have bad depersonalisation, the feeling of not knowing whats going on and feeling spaced out all the time. if anyone out there has similar things going on then plz talk to me and we can try and beat this together.adam xxxxxxx

[marie1974]

hiya just wanted to say hi and im glad you have found this site as you will get so much help and support and make friends too, keep busy indoors doing anything to take mind off neative thoughts and in time you will start to feel better keep strong and keep smiling life will get better xxxxx

[CONS]

Hey Adam i am almost totally housebound and only go out if i HAVE to.

I dont avoid crowded areas but i know going out my anxiety will be there reminding me of what i have become.

Only time i feel spaced out is if i increase my diazepam intake or have a few drinks which ironically, although a depressant NEVER increases my anxiety. Next day if i overdo my drinking is another matter.

Cons

[SANDYJANE]

hi adam and a big warm welcome .


love sandyjanexxx

[smudgie]

Hi Adam

Firstly a big warm to the forum, so glad you found us but sorry it has to be under these currumstances.

I can really relate to you and have understanding of what feeling you have and how difficult it is to live a normal life.

i have suffered from reactive depression all my life, unfortunately I have been through a terrible ordeal over the last 2/3 yrs.
I have been diagnosed with PTSD and BPD.

My derealisation and depersonalation started about 7 months ago.I have talked about this before here but alot cant understand what its like.

I can be in a room with others but not actually there, I feel in my own world and cannot stay with my surroundings nor converse with the people there. I sometimes feel like Im watching a movie.
I have many times not been able to move, stuck to the seat and not able to communicate with others.
They have explained that this is my brain keeping me safe, I dont know really. you see when I get really stressed or have severe anxiety I self harm or go off on a frenzy. Now I have these spells of isolation and dont know what on earth is going on really.

Im sorry your are having a bad time with this, if you want to talk to me please dont hestiate to do so.

Take care of you
Smudgie

[thevoicewithinme]

Hello Adam,

19 years ago I became agrophobic and was housebound for 7 years, I was so bad I couldn't open the front door!! Eventually I conquered it, by taking very small steps and I was completely free of it for 12 years. Unfortunately though, the last six to eight weeks has seen the return of my panic attacks, and with them agrophobia is starting to rear its ugly head too.

I am not housebound, but, I find it extremely difficult to drive even with someone with me, and I also hate being a passenger in a car at this present time. I am so very very determined, that I am not going to end up like I did last time, because back then I made a vow to myself as to what would happen if I did, but I am not going to say what that was.

All my life people have told me that I am a very stubborn and determined woman, and I am praying that my natural stubborness and determination will help see me through this yet again, that and the fact that my three youngest children are very dependent on me and I need to be able to do things for them.

If you ever want to talk, I am here. I always log on everyday, so if I am not online, just send me a pm and I will answer it on my next log in.

Kaz

[margaret911]

Hi Adam
to nmp, I totally understand about the derealisation because I have it too. Hope to see you in chat sometime where we support each other and sometimes have a laugh as well. Take care.
love Mags xxx

[ladygrom]

hi adam i to can relate derealisation that was my main symton with anxiety its awful it dos get easier welcome to nmp your certainly not alone tc xx

[PUGLETMUM]

hi adam to nmp, im also a sufferer of dp/dr when my anx is very high or im depressed, but i can tell you it does go!!!! the more you accept it as part of the whole thing the less it becomes. when i was 17 i had it for a whole year and eventually it just wore off as i figured it wasnt actually doing me any harm! it is uncomfortable but it isnt dangerous and it is also your brain protecting you so try to keep relaxed about it and KNOW others have had it and it does go 100%, and you are then back to your old self

[memyselfandIT]

wow i cant bieleve how many of you replied overnight, this is amazing. there are so many amazing people on this site its unreal. I used to be a stubouron selfish person at times before, but having this illness and talking to people like all of you has really opend my eyes and i cant wait to beat this and come straight back onto this site and help as many others as i can. Thank you to all of you who took time to reply to me and i hope we can chat more!!!!adam xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx