hello everyone,
Just need to moan for a while..
I never thought I would be posting under depression as I have never been depressed in my life but here goes..
I have been feeling so down lately. I'm not sure why but I guess a few things could be causing this. I am honestly starting to feel like I am useless. I have gained quite a bit of weight since I started having panic attacks, mainly because I found confort in food, especially chocolate. [:I] This didn't really bother me too much till my partner called me 'overweight'. The first time he did, I just kinda ignored it but he did it again tonight while we were watching 'The Games', don't know if any of you watch it but the girls on it are really slim. he said "why don't you look more like them?" i could have honestly thrown his outta the window. he probably didnt mean to be that offensive but it really hurt..
i've also been really stressed cos my partner is meant to be getting a job and he doesn't even seem interested in trying. I have been filling out his applications for him. i don't mind really but some enthusiasm on his part wouldn't go amiss.
I came off my meds about a month ago and am finding it quite difficult. Could it be this that is causing me to feel depressed?? I have this knot in my chest, which I have never had before and it has been there for the past week or so. I go to sleep with it and I wake up with this. Is this a sign of depression?
Sorry for the rambling. If you got this far, thanks a lot.
Sarah