A DAY FROM MY DIARY 1988

[della]

hi
came across one of my diaries today . I thought some of you may be intrested.

JAN 5TH

This morning i woke at 5-40 legs felt weak this started panic.

On and off the toilet 3 times in half and hour,
fell asleep after about 2 hours.

10-15
I feel uptight again.what am i feeling?
shakey very uptight as though i could explode cant sit still, very tearful , but can not seem to cry yet.
Imust try to get rid of these feelings, feeling scared to do anything.
11-15
Still feel the same get out the trampoline.
11-45 feel a bit better now i have used up some of the excess adrenaline.

I feel that because i suffer from anxiety that i am a failure.
I also know that i must stop thinking like this as i am not to blame for this problem.
I need to get out more and be more positive, however this for me is not easy, I feel very stupid and angry with myself.

my rating out of ten for today would be.....4-10....10 being a good day

tonight i am still very down and angry with myself the fear of panic is overwhelming me.:(

[seh1980]

I can relate to that so much Della!!

[kairen]

weird

feel like someone has just written my thoughts down,


How and why, is it we all think the same,

I used to think it was just me,

that i had something wrong with me,

wish there was a cure, so that every day u would not have this battle with your thoughts,

thanks for sharing that Della,


kairen x

[della]

hi seh
there is a cure but it is up to us ...Idid it so can you it just takes time and relaxation...i know that this is easy for me to say NOW but believe me it wasnt easy at the time.


YOU CAN DO IT

[sal]

Hi Della

Thanks for that, seems i having a day just like it, but feel it is beating me this time.

Love Sal xx


Dont mess up the best things in your life, just because at present you are unsure who you are.