hi
came across one of my diaries today . I thought some of you may be intrested.

JAN 5TH

This morning i woke at 5-40 legs felt weak this started panic.

On and off the toilet 3 times in half and hour,
fell asleep after about 2 hours.

10-15
I feel uptight again.what am i feeling?
shakey very uptight as though i could explode cant sit still, very tearful , but can not seem to cry yet.
Imust try to get rid of these feelings, feeling scared to do anything.
11-15
Still feel the same get out the trampoline.
11-45 feel a bit better now i have used up some of the excess adrenaline.

I feel that because i suffer from anxiety that i am a failure.
I also know that i must stop thinking like this as i am not to blame for this problem.
I need to get out more and be more positive, however this for me is not easy, I feel very stupid and angry with myself.

my rating out of ten for today would be.....4-10....10 being a good day

tonight i am still very down and angry with myself the fear of panic is overwhelming me.:(