Sorry to rant again but I'm so hacked off. I have been feeling really down lately and my sis said that she would come to a ball play with me and the kids, I am all worked up like I get every time I go out, got myself ready and my boys and was looking forward to going as I only get out on the days my hubby not working as I'm not quite ready to go places like this by myself yet, she has just txt me to say she can't go now. I knew not to rely on her, she always lets you down but foolishly I did again, now I am so p***** off as I have a body full of adrenalin and horrid anxiety symptoms, all this has done is reminded me how alone I am in trying to deal with this illness.
All people do is let me down, I wish they wouldn't offer their support to take it away minutes before we meant to set off. This is one of the reasons I have shut myself off from the world, I am sick of being hurt, even my own family do it to me they are the worst, they seem to think it is there right to treat me bad and say hurtful things to me coz in their oppinion I am just a head case. I am never going to arrange another thing with her, some days I just don't know why I bother, the worst thing is my boys knew we were going and now I feel really bad that I can't go by myself with them, I am so usless and fed up.
lilly-lou