My introduction

[Dragonless]

Hello to you all

Having visited this site on and off over tha last few months I realised that I am having anxiety, panic attacks and seem to be permanently frightened.... over nothing.
I am a single mum of two great daughters 18 and 14 who understand to a point and support as much as they can; but how can you expect someone to understand this seemingly meaningless 'paranoia'?? I feel for them.
At first I thought it was just the stresses and strains of motherhood, credit crunch (when hasn't it crunched I say), full time work etc. but having read things on here I realise I haven't got a digestive problem... my stomach flips (for sometimes days at a time) for something going on in my head. I am SOOOO glad I have found somewhere where I can go and you guys will understand. Isn't it hard to try and show you are okay to people when you are crying/screaming inside?? I hope that this will help me get better because I haven't always been like this and I want the old me back.
I am realising ...slowly, slowly. I know now I aren't fixed after reading something once and it will take time. No quick fix.
I am taking St Johns Wort (have been for last 3 months so should start kicking in soon), Vit B complex and Magnesium every day and always have Bachs Rescue Remedy in my bag.
Worst thing I find is on an evening and night... if there is any external noise I think someones going to hurt me - my heart flips, I get a funny feeling in the pit of my tummy and I have to shut the 'noise' out by sleeping with earplugs in !! how sad is that? I really need to be rid of this fear of noise.
So in a nutshell thats me - funny, nice, sensible and a complete fraud... people at work, friends think I'm so in control - they have no idea. Thanks for reading. oh ..... and....... helppp!!

[milly jones]

hi dragonless

a warm welcome to nmp

u scream, cry, laugh anything here ur with friends who understand xx

take care

milly xxx

[kellie]

Hiya hun to NMP its lovely to have you here.
You will get lots of support/advice/reasrance and make some great friends along the way.
I suffered with GAD ( genaralized anx disorder) as a child but i never knew what it was then and it disappeared for many years.
it reared its ugly head again 2 years ago after some very stressful times in my family and 3 deaths we had to endure. I know all to well the feelings of dread and fear over nothing that you just cant seem to shake.
Im so happy i discover this place as it has been so helpful and im sure it will be for you too.
Its realy good to talk to others who understand how you are feeling and you can reach out to. keep posting and we will help you as much as we can.

take care

kellie.xxxxxxxxxxxxxx

[Lindalou64]

Hello Dragonless And Welcome To The Site,wish Ya Well,linda

[nomorepanic]

Hi Dragonless

A warm aboard and lovely to see you here.

Hope we can be of some help

[Southern_Belle]

Hi Dragonless,

Welcome to the site. Many here will understand how you are feeling and you will get support.

Take care,

Laura

[DrGreenThumb]

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[weeble40]

welcome to NMP hope to see you around sometime

Emma xxx

[leonard]

Hi dragonless
Welcome nmp. I have read you message. You are not a fraud. You are a strong person, who at the moment is feeling insecure and alone, coping with an illness other people cannot see, feel or understand. Here at nmp we do understand and sympathise.
Keep posting and nmp members will reply with advice.
Have patience and be kind to yourself. That I think will be your starting block.
Take care and best wishes
Leonard