First post- my health anxiety.
Hi there everyone. This is my first post here. I'm from NYC but I've been in Pakistan for a year visiting with my parents, for the first time in many year. This will be a long post- I h ope you all don't mind.
My health anxiety began 2 months ago. It started when I got twitches and twinges in different parts of my body. I used to get them before, but this time i started getting them more and more and all over. When I began to feel the fluttery twitches in my left shoulder and left breast, I began to get worried. One night I was sitting online and I began to get cold hands and feet. I got nervous and began to feel twinges all over, and when I felt it on the left side, I began to feel my heart race. I got a panic attack....I began to think something was seriously wrong with my heart and thats what was causing my twinges all over. My panic got so bad that at 3am at night my parents called my uncle, who's a doctor to my house. My uncle tried to reassure me that nothing was wrong with my heart.
EVerything has gone downhill from there. Following that I was weak and felt tired for about 2 weeks. Finally I had a blood test and it showed some elevated liver enzymes, and that I was anemic (iron defficiency). My uncle then sent me for an ultrasound of the abdominal and pelvic area, as well as tests for Hepatitis B&C, as well as a lipid profile test. Those test came out "excellent". He says all i need to do is eat fruits and veggies and walk. My heart is 110% he says.
But the past two months have been horrible. When i found out that i had elevated liver enzymes, i googled....google is my worst enemy. During these two months, I have thought I had liver cirrohsis(spelling??), liver cancer, leukemia, a brain tumor...and several heart conditions.
Two weeks ago I went to the bathroom and saw some blood in my poo. It was bright red and fresh, it happend about 4 more times and then stopped. I told my uncle and he's given me anti-acids and a fiber pill and the past 5 days, no blood. The blood as u can understand scared me breathless.
The truth is, I feel fine. I AM FINE. I dont feel weak or tired, or sick at all. But after the poop worries (which included me googling and thinking i have colon/bowel/etc cancers) ended, Im now back to worrying about my heart. I have noticed that when i worry about my heart, things begin to happen to my heart. The worst day was when I worried all day, and sat down at night and had 3 straight VERY NOTICABLE flutters. Today I've been horrible with this heart worry....so I have had missed beats, flutters, feeling that it's sinking...and last night when i was laying down and probably worrying about it in the back of my mind, I had some shotting pains in between my breasts....and about 2-3 of those today as well....i get those in other parts of my body too but when it's near my heart, that drives me crazy.
Today i went shopping and i was miserable the entire time, all i thought about was my heart. I walked there, no issues. I am slightly overweight and dont exercise, but if I walk long distances or stand a long time, I never have any heart issues. Thats because my heart IS FINE.
I'm worried sick right now. My throat and eyes are dried up, probably this anxiety...i feel that if i continue worrying about my heart, that it'll eventually give up on me.
I have been reading this forum for 3 weeks now and finally have decided to join. I have never had any EKGs or other heart tests cuz I"VE NEVER NEEDED IT. I probably still dont....my uncle checked my blood pressure and when he checked it (i was extremely nervous when he was doing it and had a racing heart), he said it was "extremely good".
I'm 19 btw., In the past 19 years, maybe every 3 mmonths or so, i might have had a close beat or skipped beat, and thats it. Never cared about it cuz the heart was never an issue of mine.
But now this is all im thinking about---and the thinking is manifesting itself and im having weird flutters, aches, skipped beats, etc....
sometimes i think it's beating too slow, sometimes i think it's beating too fast.
I'm just miserable. I've had this for two months and I already have thought I had colon cancer, bowel cancer, lung cancer, leukemia, brain tumor, heart conditions, etc etc...
I n eed this to go away cuz I start college in a few months. I'll be going to Italy for college. My parents have worked so hard to make this real for me and I am a good student, and I dont wanna let them down. I wanna make um proud and this thing pops up.
I'm miserable. Please help and I sincerely apoligize for the long post.
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Originally Posted by yanksforever
