A little backstory:
- I've had panic disorder since the beginning of 2003 to varying degrees.
- Got really, really bad a couple of weeks ago
- Have panic attacks all the time at work (I work in live TV)
- I learned a couple of weeks ago that my grandma is dying
I was at work tonight, and all of a sudden I started feeling emotional and panicky out of nowhere. It snowballed and I got worse and worse and worse and couldn't stop thinking about it. I ended up having to leave work, and I talked to my mom on the way home and couldn't stop crying. I just want to not have to worry about panic attacks, and I want to start feeling like myself again.
I'm starting to feel a bit better right now, but I have these spells where I feel unbelievably terrible, like something absolutely awful is about to happen to me. What do I do?