Hey everyone...

I've had all the symptoms everyone is expressing..

Its Nuts isn't it...

Fear of losing feelings for BF,
suddenly feeling numb leading to guilt and overcompensating
Fear of BF losing feeling for me
Fear he is cheating
Fear he wants to break up
Feeling like Im a liar in the relationship and leading him on
Feeling like an evil person
Symptoms have occured in every relationship for 11 years now
analysing every thought word action
Analysing ever relationship including my kids my parents my best friends collegues
Catastrophising - if hes 2 minutes late he's dead or dying somewhere

Whats worse is in the middle of a bout I feel like ROCD OCD GAD are not real they're just me making excuses for myself...

SUCKS BIG TIME...

Wish i could do a brain swap sometmes with a naieve stupid person who's never had so much as an after thought...

We fight on i guess... This time in this relationship i have decided even in the guilt days the analysing days the numb days i am not giving up and not letting him go! I will win this war and if the ROCD takes me down im taking it with me!

Hope you're all having a calmer day

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