How much can you take before reaching breaking point - I am there!

[milly jones]

just another hug nic

mill xxx

[Karen]

Sorry you are having a rough time at the moment Nic. Sending you some hugs

Karen xx

[nomorepanic]

Thanks for all your lovely replies and support.

I wanted to post and say I feel better but I don't

Last night I was so stressed I drank way too much and of course today I am suffering for it and the throat is no better.

I am trying to distract myself as much as I can but it is hard.

I just have to hope that I get some relief when I see the specialist.

With regards to the ovarian cyst - I am assuming that is causing the back pain as I know it is a symptom and I have had it a few weeks now. They will not do anything until I get it re-scanned in 6 weeks.

I appreciate all the support though so thanks again

[fairyloveheart]

Sorry you are feeling so down

[Granny Primark]

nic so sorry you're feeling so unwell and stressed at the moment.
To be honest Ive noticed it in your recent posts.
So often ive been told to take a step back and concentrate on myself.
I really think that its time you made time for yourself.
I used to take everyones problems on board and the result was me becoming unable to work because of anxiety and panic.
Its difficult to stop acting like you can cope and solve everyones problems. Ive been there and done that.
Your main priority is yourself.
I really hope you begin to feel better soon.

p.s sorry for the lecture lol

[nomorepanic]

Thanks Lynn for the kind words

I do hope that I haven't offended anyone with my replies to their posts recently You made me worry that I said something I shouldn't have. I am sorry if I did. Please let me know if I upset someone and I will reply.

Yes I need to make time for me and it is ironic that someone PM'd me tonight and said the same and even my mum said "where is the Nicola time in all of this".

I even sat tonight folding NMP flyers to send to people so I guess I never let it go. I even did the September prize quiz and checked all the entries for the August one so far - so yes outside of posting on the forum I still do background stuff for NMP.

I guess it has been my baby for so long and I feel responsible for what happens on here and like to see it run smoothly.

Yes the admins can cope without me just fine

I think the main problem is feeling so ill and hiding it from work and having to go there each day and pretend I am fine. I have my reasons for not telling them and I do not want time off and sympathy from them.

I guess I posted as people think I am some sort of superhero and all is ok with me and I am well and I wanted people to know that I am not so good and I really need help and support too.

I created NMP to get help and help others and I appreciate all comments and support so thanks.

Would I be free of panic if I wasn't on here all the time? Who knows - maybe I would have moved on and not dwelled on things and got so tied up with people's issues and moved on. All I know is that I have to do this to help people.

Anyway I am waffling

[belle]

Sorry you're having a shi*ty time.

x

[lilly-lou]

Hi Nicola,

Sorry to see you are still feeling rough, I think that you and the admins do a wonderful job on this site, I have done more outings this last couple of months since joining N.M.P. than I have juring the 7yrs I have suffered from agoraphobia. I don't think that you would be free from panic if you didn't hang around here so often and I guess that it gives you a lot of self worth when you read how many people you have helped just by keeping this website going, I haven't got any worse by coming here if anything I have made heaps of progress. We all have blips, I have had many but somehow we manage to carry on. I think that maybe while you are having a few issues yourself that you do need a little 'me' time,it will give you the time you need to relax and get well.

Take care

lilly-lou

[Coni]

Hi Nic, sorry to hear things are so rough for you just now....I hope today is a better day for you and you manage to find the time to do something nice just for yourself.

Sorry I cant be more help

love Coni XXX

[honeybee3939]

Love

Andrea
xxxxx