so scared,can`t believe it`s anxiety

[mom22]

Hi Mila,

Sounds you're scared...that emotion is feeding all the physical symptoms you're experiencing. When this first hit me I felt exactly the same way you're feeling now (I don't have asthma) - tight chest, can't breath, shaky, tight throat, can't swallow, dry mouth, achy head, the runs, thinking about it ALL the time - you name, I had it. Best advice is what others have said, distract yourself with something physical that also requires some degree of concentration (aerobics video, sing and vacuum?), get some deep breathing going and reassure yourself that you're ok. You are ok! The doctors have said so too.

Take care,
Sue

[carlin]

Hi Mila,
Reading your post was as if i had posted it myself a year ago, that was the reason i joined this site, i had all the symptoms you describe (and more), hated being left alone, the feelings were so over whelming i wanted to scream out and run outside for some-one to help, things have changed this last year, i now can manage the awful panics, although i still get them, i control them, i think i realised that it was definately anxiety, not heart attack, blood pressure, etc...i am now on my own a lot, and enjoy it now, i did go for hynotherapy last year and found this helped me short term, i used to run around like a 'mad' women wanting to get out, now i distract myself, i sing loudly, dance, absolutely anything to take my mind off of my body and it's symptoms, please be re-assured that the doctors have missed nothing and things will improve gradually, keep in touch and take care.

[mila]

:(:(:(I feel so fed up with this!!! Why can`t i stop being afraid of it? I`m so scared it`s all in vain,the cipralex i started taking , the cbt i`ll start next week, cause how can i ever stop being afraid of not being able to breathe, i`m scared that it will never go away, or if it does it will keep coming back, because i just can`t believe there`s nothing wrong with me . I know guys some of you said you`ve felt this way , i`m so grateful for your posts,really am so much, but i wish i would not hear someone actually describing the same things i feel, you know what i mean...It`s awful, doubting like i do now, i`m sure you all did at some point, believing that no one could`ve ever felt as bad as you do now...i just feel that if other people felt it as bad as i do, i`m it didn`t last like mine, since it started 10 days ago it`s the same,continously bad with the times when i lose it, lose patience with it and start panicing when i feel even worse...I have moments when i just go on, go around doing things , accepting what i feel, but i also hate myself at that moments, i think that i`ve tried all i could i`ve been to the doctor, i couldn`t go back again, so if there`s still something wrong,so be it, i feel like i`m in the mercy of God...hating myself if there`s nothing wrong,and i`m doing this to myself,but at the same time feeling self-pitty, cause i don`t really think it`s my fault...But than i have moments when i feel like i must run bak to the doctor,any doctor,and just make him look again,i feel they didn`t look properly cause it says i`ve got anxiety...just make him say that he couldn`t be more sure that there`s nothing wrong,just explain to me what happens in my body and i feel it,so i could understand and finally believe it` is really just anxiety-that all the tightness is just anxiety, and that awful feeling of smothering is just anxiety and that i am really breathing even when i feel it`s hard to speak...yeah and he could explain why i find it hard to speak loud sometimes...so i could finally finally stop doubting...as long as i doubt i`m stuck here,that`s for sure, and maybe nothing would happen to me,but my life is on hold...
Thanks all of you
Millie

[pinkscrumpy]

Hi Mila

Just wanted to say that i to wish that I could stop doubing that it is only anxiety. Its a hell of a lot easier said than done

MANDIE XX

[mila]

THANKS
I feel stupid for continuing to write about this and ask about it...but i just find it so so difficult to cope with it, i don`t remember ever feeling more frightened, more desperate for it to go away, and the thing that is the most important is that before after a year of visting doctors and doing loads of tests and checks i have n`t seen one for ages except for usual things like colds and stuff , things i felt,i believed they were anxiety, it didn`t make them go away or make me feel any better about it but it sure helped with dealing with it, there was no doubt about it and that means so much for recovery,at least for me....
But now, i feel torn between doubting and accepting. I can`t accept it because of constant doubting it`s real this time, and fearing it will just get worse and i won`t be able to breathe at all...How can I accept and do all the other things,float,let time pass and so on when whenever it gets worse(it`s constantly there just sometimes gets frighteningly worse) i feel like i want to run to the nearest doctor again...I woke up this morning,about 4 and i realised it felt really tight in my chest, i had that feeling when you feel like you`re still dreaming, and it was because i thought if i`m waking up with it it must be something wrong...it`s hard to go back to sleep afterwards cause i start fearing it will get worse ...and than when i woke up again later i had my throat tight too like someone `s pressing the part of my neck where men have adam`s apple,you know where i mean,but from the inside i think...Is that where the vocal cords are? I`ve done anatomy but if that`s the fact that may be the reason why i find my voice wierd sometimes,or find it difficult to let my voice out loudly,that the muscles there get tight cause of anxiety so that would mean it`s cause of anxiety and i can`t ever be sure about that WOW That was alot of rambling LOL I wonder will anyone understand what I was saying there lol
I am so grateful for being able to say all these things here,it makes it a bit better....
I just wanted to ask you guys if anyone felt like this could you please please try to describe to me what you felt, i know a lot of you had some kind of breathing problems but if i hear someone describing the same thing i feel and if i hear someone saying they felt it all the time like i do i may start to feel safer to accept it,and less alone in this...I just hope there is a person like that although i don`t really wish this on anyone and it doesn`t sound too good saying that,does it [8)] saying you wish someone else had felt so horrible too...