Hi Alexis,
Sorry to have just seen this and I do understand what you mean by anniversaries. I'm going through them myself as all the "firsts" without my Grandmother. You have come very far and the very fact that you can walk to work is proof of it. I would think that this is perfectly normal to feel losses during this time. I do hope they ease up with time and that is probably what you need. I hope you are feeling better by now.
Huge hugs,
Laura