I don't care

[jcapson]

I know it's been 2 post in this area in 2 days, so please bear with me.

I don't seem to care about anything right now. If I get to work late, oh well. If I actually do work instead of playing, oh well. I just can't care about anything right now. I'm guessing it's the mild depression brought on by the panic/anxiety. And I sure it has something, if not everything, to do with my sleeping problems.

I want to care, I just don't have it in me to try. I'm walking slower today, I'm doing everything slower today. It almost feels like the world is going faster around me...and guess what, I don't care. I have been taking my meds but I think the reason is that my HB still has yet to find a job. Maybe it's the rebelliousness in me that I don't want to be everything and do everything anymore...atleast right now.

If I thought I could take a vacation day and walk around town for "me time" I would but I think I'll treat myself to lunch (cheap McD's) and try to pick myself up that way.

[Alisonj]

Hun, its sounds like a little more than mild depression. What is the dosage of Paxil that you are on? It may be time for an increase. You shouldnt still have to feel so bad. I have days like that as well, sometimes I dont even want to get out of bed, I figure why bother. But its those smiling faces on the kids that bring me around. Huge hugs and I am here if you want to chat

[milly jones]

sometimes apathy holds hands with depression

i cant be bothered with anything round my house, the cleaning, the washing, the cooking, buying food etc

i dont see the mess

i wash stuff as i need to wear it

thankfully i have a hb who does try to keep the house running

pls go have a chat to ur gp and tell him how u feel


milly xx

ps i am getting relevant help, but its a slow process

[jcapson]

Thanks ladies. I have ups and downs and this seems to be a down time.

Alison - I take 30mg. My GP never uped the dose last time since I was feeling better (many more better days than bad). I need to go see him next week and will bring my concerns up with him again.

[marie1974]

hi hun i think u need to try and find something that does interest u and motivate u and bring some excitement back into your life, mayb also reg exercise as that def boosts moods and motivates u. its horrid if u feel stuck in a rut and cannot be bothered but u can pull your self out, honest, i did.
hugs to u xxxx