........rather messy
hi...im new here
21yr old girl, from devon....just think im broken
i feel like i was running out of options and so went back online to find some kind of support network,, as i dont really have any
i always think i can do this on my own, i think i need to admit that i need some help..
i just decided to breakup with my boyfriend of 2 years, he was very unsupportive and didnt really do anything to help me
this was more of..the topping on the cake and i know i need to get healthy now
, my dad(my rock) died of cancer, my sister is back at uni and never see her, and me and my mother have a horridly abusive destrctive relationship and so iv decieded to do the scaryest thing , and move out alone to stop this circle going on and on and on.
iv had ongoing problems seems like all my life its been about 5 years now, anxiety,depression,pannic,eating disorder,berievment,sleeping problems..
i drink alot so i can go out(used to take drugs too but i knew it makes me worse,) everyone i know doeant know about this side of my life and im scared to tel poeple.....they all think im a crazy wild child
i dont even know
i just feel like im shutting down and im scared ...i feel very lost
i just wanted to find someone or something i could connect with as i dont know anyone who understands the lonelyness of such a disability that no one ever knows about, or considers to be a real problem.
i feel a little...exposed now but i know i should just say this
as im sure alot of you are in simular places
anyone that wants to talk,
hit me up
thanks
xx
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