Hi everyone
Well today was my first CBT apt, it was pretty hair raising, I had to go back over the last 30 odd years of my life, trying to explain why and when I had my first fear of death and my first reall major panic attack, what a nightmare.
I know this is an important factor into my CBT but god it was hard working and so draining, next week I have to give her a list of all the things I would like to do,
When I listened to myself talking today, I felt like I was being so self piteous, it almost sounded pathetic, listening to my life story, but then I realised to myself, that actually this was not self pity, but a story which I have had to relive for over 30 years and I now want to close the chapter and move on.
I am really scared that all this reliving of my past is not going to help me, mainly because I have done this before, but hopefully this time something positive will come out of it, I just want to close the door on this and move on with my life for my children and for myself, is that possible???
Well sorry for rambling but I just wanted to talk this through, !!!
Please if anyone is currently doing CBT I would love to know how it works for you and where you all started from when you started it.
Sue with 5 children
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