This is it, I have felt miserable the whole of my life, I have absolutly nothing to smile about, no friends no relationship, no money, no sex drive nothing. I have been in denial all these years believing that the world had it in for me but the truth is im just a person who isn't programmed to feel normal and so the loneliness will continue until the day I die that I am convinced. Ive tried everything but there is nothing I can do. Im on the outside on my own always looking in.