This is something I feel is so crazy that I cant tell the people I normally would and I'm embarrassed about telling my therapist. I start panicking when I put on a wash because I know I can't stop it once it starts - it's a control issue. My b/f sometimes washes his stuff at my house and I told him I'd lost the key to the utilty room and he couldn't use it. I never lie to him and I felt horrible. Am I on my own with this one? It feels so stupid