OCD makes it seem so real!

[drewman]

Dont u find its very odd how OCD can throw EVERYTHING at u to make a thought seem soooo real.

Takes all logic away from your thinking and installs irrational fear.
Eg, i have had a new HIV fear (in my other thread on a lancet)

I know deep down that this is an irrational fear, but its still with me 2 weeks later. I had major HIV fear this time last year and thats how my OCD started, 4 tests later and i believed it

Then Diabetes, relationship, past thoughts and even Peadophile thoughts kicked in, all i dealt with in a quicker space.

then BAM!!! just as i get clarity of my mind HIV flys back to me just as i wake and a whole story is already set in place and a whole new spin which i never thought of last year.

What im trying to say, is that your current fear always seems soooo real and the others when u look back dont.

Does that make sense?

[citygirl1]

Hi Drewman.

Yes i can relate to what your saying. The thought becomes "fixed".

I have been experiencing anxiety the past few weeks, seem to go through spells of this. My latest is that i'm gay and must then be in love with my best friend because of that, when in reality i know i'm happily married and like men. I don't want to tell my family or my hubby or my best mate inase they actually think i am, because lets be honest when your a rational thinker and soemone tells you something like that, you probably would doubt them!

It's horrible because you actually feel as of the thoughts are the real you, but really it's just the thinking that's totally distorted. That's the horrible bit, you actually know deep down the thinking is dostorted!

[drewman]

I totally agree, i wish i could take other peoples advice
Like my partner tells me its totally irational, yet i still think he doesnt know jack.

When the truth is that its me that is getting it wrong!

[alexis]

I know exactly what you mean Drewman, and its always worst in middle of the night with me, and I wake up and thats it, no more sleep.
xxx

[drewman]

Im the same recently, i get a terrible spike in my sleep and it keeps me up.