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[nomorepanic]

Charlie

Hope you are feeling better now. Sorry we made you cry but it may have made you feel better eh?

I agree with what Meg says - I have high expectations of myself and want to be liked. So much so that people walk over me a lot.

I work in a team of 8 men and I try to be one of the lads to fit in. This can backfire however and I sometimes try to please too much and then can't take the jibes and comments like the lads can!

They don't understand my panic and are not very sympathetic so I go in every day smiling when I am hurting inside.

Keep your chin up Charlie - we all love ya here.

Nicola

[Lottie32]

Thanks Nic

Must be the weather - last week I was buzzing, this week I'm a bit "touchy". And people keep sending me nice message which doesn't help !!!! (LOL) (Well actually it does cos it makes me feel better, but it makes me cry too!!) You know what I mean

Love

Charlie

[nomorepanic]

Yeah Charlie

Sometimes people being nice is as upsetting as people being horrible!!

Nicola

[Lottie32]

Nic

Actually its worse. If people are horrible, I can deal with that cos they are toss**s who I don't care about. People being nice is harder, cos you know they care for you!!!!

Bryan hit it on the head when he made the comment about "knowing" each other, and it only being as an internet friend. Even though most of us have never met, there is a really nice sense of belonging and understanding that is echoed through the site. It's good to know we belong.

I'm going now before I sound like some dodgy American Evangalist preacher.

But I think you know what I mean. You and Meg, Lucky, Bryan, Diane, Sara and the others are all like an extended family, and now I know I'm not the only "mad" person out there, I am coping much better. It's also nice to know you can bring up any issue, and somebody will provide a sensible caring answer

Thanks guys

Love

Charlie

[nomorepanic]

Charlie

We all feel as though we know each other don't we? That is why I did the pics page as well so people could actually see who they were "chatting" to. Where is your pic by the way - here is how I see you ...

short brown hair, very pretty but with tom-boyish looks (like me). Not a dress lady, more jeans and t-shirt. A cheeky grin.

I bet I am miles off - lol

Nicola

[benoo5]

nic,

i bet shes the only girl in the pub in high heels,and a donkey jacket lol....bryan,

[Lottie32]

Actually Bryan it's para boots and a sequin sleeveless top!!!

And you think I'm joking!!!???

If I'm feeling brave, I might just post one this weekend.

Nic - you are right about the grin and the lack of dresses, but I'm not pretty, and my hair is shoulder length.

Can I post one of me on my horse? I won't feel so exposed then!!!! (LOL)

Charlie

[nomorepanic]

Hi Charlie

So I wasn't even close then lol.

Yeah sure - one on the horse will be fine :-)

Nicola

[benoo5]

ime not saying a word lol....bryan.

[Lottie32]

Well that makes a refreshing change!!! Ha Ha Ha (LOL)

Mind you, now we know what Bryan looks like, I suppose it can't hurt me

Charlie