I have always hated myself for being ugly and generally crap at everything. I know how inferior I am to other people and I have always been a bit of loner. I am very awkward around other people - especially members of the opposite sex and I clam up completely and skulk in the corner getting my beer down my neck as fast as I can to tray and calm my nerves whenever I go out (which isn't often). I hate being so awkward around other people whom I don't know. I know that they won't like me and there is nothing I can say that WILL make them like me. I hate being scared of people.