hi, finding it really hard to cope at the moment my ocd is getting worse and worse.
i have been under alot of stress lately, my grandma is ill, mentally and physically so its a big strain on me because i am having to deal with it on my own mostly.
anyway i have numerous obsessions, too many to list but the main one at the moment is my 2 cats. i cant cope anymore. i have an obsession over germs, bacteria causing illness. i have the cats in the kitchen at the moment as i recently found a flea in the lounge and after hours on google found out that the fleas live in the soft furnishings, got just wood in the kitchen so i thought this would help. the cats have been treated for worms and fleas.
now they are in the kitchen and its a nightmare, they jump on the surfaces and pull food out of the bin, then there is the litter box.
my anxiety levels are really high, i cant have a cup of tea unless i wash the kettle obsessively first, because i know they have been on the counter. i dont eat much because of my ocd over the kitchen and the cats, i have actually lost weight. my hands are red cracked and bleeding from all the washing and cleaning products.
i cant carry on, i know its not the cats fault but i just cant control the obsessions. i know if i bring them into the room again it will be the same i will just think there are fleas in the sofa. i considered leaving them out but this seems cruel and other people also said it was.
sorry, i know it all sounds rather silly but i just dont know what to do.
thanks for listening.
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