Hi everyone,
This is my first post - i've been reading others for a while and found it so comforting to know other people are going through what i'm going through.
I started a new job at the end of september and within weeks all my anxiety had come back - hadn't had any setbacks for over a year, had managed to come off citalopram but this new job was awful. I couldn't do anything, couldn't concentrate, couldn't make the smallest decision, was having anxiety attacks...i got signed of sick for a week but the doctor wanted to sign me off longer but i knew work wouldn't understand - first day back after the week off they fired me. I was only on probation so nothing i can do. It was a horrible place anyway so i'm better off out of there but now i feel like such a failure. I've been looking for jobs and can't find anything. I feel like it's all my fault somehow and that i'm such a weak person, why couldnt i do the job when everyone around me could? I'm only 24 and feel like i've ruined my career.
I'm back on the citalopram which has really helped with the anxiety but i feel so upset at times and cant stop crying (like now!)
Just wish i could be 'normal' and get on with things like everyone else does. I feel like i'm putting so much pressure on my mum too. She's a massive support but her mum died this year and now i'm putting all my problems on her :-(
Any words of advice or clarity would be much appreciated!
Liz xxxx